"Here's what I started thinking: All the wonder of God happens right above our arithmetic and formula. The more I climb outside my pat answers, the more invigorating the view the more my heart enters into worship." Donald Miller.
I read several more chapters in Blue Like Jazz this evening. I read this book every two or three years and always find new stuff. It's almost as if I forget the book in it's entirety and am reading it first the first time anew. I wish I wouldn't have had to work the night he spoke at Windsor Crossing. I would've liked to hear him and get to know this guy, whom I feel, I relate with heavily. (I too have had, at one point or another, a crush on Emily Dickinson).
Tonight's episodes (what's what I call his chapters) were about romance, being alone, living in community, money, and worship. I'm not currently in a romantic relationship, and haven't for the better part of nine years. (one month exception) I too fell alone, yet quite often prefer it because I don't know how to handle people, so I'd rather just deal without sometimes. On the plus side of that, I have community within my small group of guys. We're all best friends who share thoughts, fart jokes, problems, fears, and anxieties. I don't have much money. What I have usually gets spent on bills, groceries, and musical equipment in the hopes of someday having a real job as a real musician. And, last but not least, I have a college degree in worship, but I seldom do it. I don't pray much, or tithe. By the books, I'm a horrible Christian. So as you see, tonight's episodes were God-chosen to speak to me. After five chapters, I'm mentally and emotionally wracked and might just go to bed early.
